I've seen some fucked up shit, and I've heard some horror core rap, but Jesus Christ this is insane. It's so fucked up, I found it enjoyable. Ironically, as you mentioned earlier about having a shitty family, my family is very supportive and (usually) kind. I do however have severe depression, insomnia, and anxiety. I even sometimes fantasize about killing my self (used to be a daily thing). I guess it's just nice to see that you aren't the only person in the world that has a fucked up imagination. I'm honestly not sure WHY I like this kind of stuff, but damn it, I do.